Do you ever see a picture... or read something you wrote in the past... and it literally transports you to that time? You can physically feel the emotions. You may even respond to them with a smile, tears, laughter, or anxiousness. Well, that is exactly what just happened to me...
I burst into tears this morning when I opened up my Facebook memories. I would encourage you to read through my post below. One year ago today, we hit Gold rank with doTERRA. I had a profound & inspiring month. I achieved things I didn't know I could achieve. My verbiage is very clearly one of hope!
Then just 4 months later in November, we hit Platinum rank, seemingly out of nowhere, and I started to really believe. I was beginning to rise and become this person that I knew was inside of me, but I hadn't been given the opportunity to be just yet. Things were trending up. Our life was feeling like it was coming together and I was FINALLY going to achieve something I had been working for.
I can't fully explain what happened in 2018 though. December was great! January was decent, but it felt like things were getting chaotic and like we weren't in alignment somehow. February I decided that I would just work harder. Clearly that was the answer. Things were staying steady, but growth wasn't really happening... not in our business, not in our family, not in my personal development. I was so focused, though!!! March I worked even harder, but with fewer results. Everything started to fall apart mid-March, but April was the real kicker. If you haven't read the book "The Body Keeps The Score", this term may not make sense... but my "trauma-versary" from past events begins in March and goes through Mother's Day. I was literally falling apart mentally, physically, emotionally and I couldn't explain it. I couldn't "work through it". I had deep wounds and memories, literally within my body. I had to get to the root and start working from there.
Here I stand, one year later from the post above. I am more whole than I've ever been. I am more in tune and healed. I am more self aware. I've watched people rise and surround me with love... I've watched people fail me and ignore me for months on end, waiting for me to "get over" whatever I was dealing with. Even more life-changing, I've watched myself rise. I've watched myself fall. I'm coming out the end of this season with an awareness & a grasp on reality that I don't think I ever wanted to experience, but nevertheless, I now have.
We had the infamous Buy-One Get-One week with doTERRA a couple weeks ago and a dear friend said "nothing like a BOGO Week to show you where your weaknesses are!" She was referring to our businesses, but I would counter that to say... there's nothing like going through a deep valley in your life to show you where your weaknesses are. I've had a revelation of weaknesses. It's like my entire life has been put under a metaphoric microscope and I can see every hole, parasite, wound, infection, strain, and even down to every skewed perception. Likewise, I've been able to see every strength, positive quality, asset, and blessing in my life.
I have been through a surprising amount of valleys in my 32 years of life. I have never come out the other side of one feeling this complete. I have found my true friends. I have found my true strengths. I have found my true mission in this season of life, to bring self-care, self-love, and empowerment back into the picture for other women, through doTERRA. I am brainstorming like crazy these days, as I put all my passion and life into this mission.
We took a family day recently. We visited the zoo, then went to this magical sunflower patch in a conservation area that's right in the middle of the city. I was completely inspired by the sunset, my precious family, and these gorgeous flowers. It was a day that wasn't perfect. There were crying kids, we were on a time crunch because we didn't leave on time, nobody felt like they were cooperating, and I was starting to lose it... then we get to this place & I saw these flowers... facing toward the sun. All they do is grow taller and taller toward the sun. They don't grow down. They don't stop when a bazillion bees land on them and a million families come to take pictures with them. Ha! They just open up, face the light, let the sun help them grow, and they keep going.
I cannot wait to reveal what I've been working on. I have some pretty amazing things in store!! So get ready!! This girl is out of the valley. I've been through the lows, I've learned from the sunflowers, and I am back to climbing my next mountain!
Those of you that know the extent of our Spring & Summer to this point will know how freaking excited I am about what I’m about to share.
We’ve felt so overwhelmed these past few months. One major thing after another was breaking. We had a dog who kept bringing fleas into the house and we couldn’t get on top of it. I had to step back from our business (which is not to a completely residual place yet) for a bit to do some self-care & healing, which meant our finances were no bueno. It felt like we couldn’t withstand one more thing, but now little by little, we are seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
🙌🏻 We are almost FINALLY caught up with laundry after getting a new-to-us washer last weekend (after not having a washer since March when it broke while I was out of town). I hope the only time in the future that we have to load up our van to spend $50 and hours at the laundromat is after a long vacation.
🙌🏻 I think... we maybe... got on top of the flea situation today, after months of issues! Both dogs are clear, there’s no more carpet on our stairs (where they were apparently living 🤢), carpet upstairs is being steamed, and I’m low on both Cedarwood & TerraShield. Lol. Also, we are now surprisingly OUT of Peppermint oil, which is a day I never thought I’d see. 😂 Dogs will be bathed again tonight after floors are clear just to be safe & fresh bandanas with oils will be applied to prevent further isssues. Aaaaand no more dogs upstairs, permanently. I’m letting Eli keep Dusty at the moment (the initial flea-infested dog, thanks to his constant escaping into the woods to “play”) but he is on a short leash. Literally.
🙌🏻 Michael tackled 2 major backyard situations this afternoon. There are 3 more urgent ones that were started in the spring that we have to finish still, but I’m just grateful we are making progress! It might seem odd that I’m mentioning this, but our TIME has been sabotaged for MONTHS. The weight of unfinished projects staring at you in the face is the worst!
🙌🏻 (This is a big one!) I’ve been awake & present for all of this!!! I’m feeling so much better. Like... my body & brain are actually functioning again after likely about 4 years of disfunction & barely surviving!! I’m getting back to my usual busy self, but with complete intention... not just to be busy. I’m having new ideas & am strategizing again! I’m enjoying my kids, reading to them, playing with them, talking about birthday parties. I actually have energy to be a mom like I used to! More & more progress!!! Every day, I feel more like myself! I am so thankful for an phenomenal friend & doctor who has helped me get to the root of all this PLUS the amazing oils & supplements that are helping me get on track! Take that, trauma!! I’m coming back!!
The season of chaos is finally beginning to come to a close!!! Hooray!!!! We’re praying our way through a few situations, and they’re definitely major, but with me feeling better & our dōTERRA business on the upswing, I feel like we are going to have a completely different July & August!! 🙌🏻 April-June was apparently just preparation time!
I am a mommy of SEVEN (yes 7) beautiful kids! They are amazing, wonderful, hilarious & the greatest babies I could ask for! I am married to my best friend & high school sweetheart, Michael.
I love to craft. I love to decorate. I am passionate about natural living & natural birthing. Sometimes I write stuff. I plan parties like my life depended on it. My favorite color is pink. My house is definitely NOT taupe. I typically cannot keep plants alive. I am only allowed to have dogs as pets because all others tend to have the same end result as the plants. Luckily my track record with kids is pretty good! Also, I drink a lot of coffee. And I really like tacos.