When the Captain goes overboard...

Michael and I have this little banter, mostly because he likes to poke fun of my bossiness. It's not being bossy if you're just telling people the right way to do things, though. Right?! The reality is I just say the things that needs to be said to keep this ship afloat! Well, conveniently he calls me "Captain". Like... of a boat. Ha!

At first I fought this silly name, but now I kind of like it. It suits me & I'm running with it! Don't worry, I'm not transforming my house into a nautical theme or anything. Haha! I'm just owning my Captain-like nature these days!

• I keep track of the schedules.
• I make sure everyone is where they are supposed to be at the time they are supposed to be there as much as is physically possible.
• I chart out the course of our morning, our day, our week, our month, the season, the year, and into the future. And when I say I "chart"... there are literal charts. Everywhere.
• I do the projects like rearranging the cabinets when it feels like we're not using them effectively or when I realize that the "pantry" cabinet should really be near the food prep space.
• I enlist kids to help us accomplish major tasks like cleaning out the van or cleaning the windows or dusting the ceiling fans.
• I make sure everyone is taking their vitamins, putting their oils on, brushing their teeth, putting on their deodorant, taking a shower, wearing socks, brushing their hair, and getting a regular chiropractic adjustment.

You guys. I do all of this in addition to trying to run a business. Not only am I trying to run business, I'm participating in an intensive program where I am now attending/teaching oils classes almost daily, traveling often, and pushing our Leaders just as hard as we are pushing ourselves. We have a goal to hit the rank of Diamond... and for a myriad of reasons, we are aiming to do that SOON. Anyone who has a clue what this means or had done this themselves will attest to the fact that this is ZERO PERCENT EASY! Ha! 

So, here's my point. As the captain, I have to keep my stuff together. The moment I lose it... or mess up... or forget one thing... the whole ship could go down!

​And so we did.

Last week, we hit some bumps in the road. If you can't tell, I struggle with giving control away. So, as I am in a business that is quite literally dependent on other people... to purchase, to order, to invite their friends, to follow through, to do their own classes, to do what they say they are going to do... I often find myself growing whether I like it or not. Last week was that week. My word for 2018 is BELIEVE. It took everything within me to BELIEVE that the outcome that was supposed to happen WOULD. In the end, it wasn't the outcome that I thought was supposed to happen.

At the same time, our son got some test results regarding special education services available to him that were the answer to years of prayers... while simultaneously being a big, fat, frustrating, closed door. That's a story for another day. All you need to know is that I was in an intense conflict between rejoicing and feeling completely hopeless.

Then I took Easter Sunday off with my family and everything fell apart. 

The break itself was much needed! It was the moment that I had to breathe & NOT WORK that sunk us. I got to think clearly for the first time in months. 

The ship sunk and it was the greatest thing that could have ever happened! I'm currently rowing back to shore in a rescue boat. I'm thinking. I'm processing. I'm re-assessing. By the time we get to shore, I'm sure I'll have full blueprints for a bigger, better ship. After all, I am the captain!